Fiance with Retrograde Amnesia from surgery
by Ambivalent Grief
I have been with my fiance for 10 years. After 6 years, he developed epilepsy and had a grand mal that almost killed him.
Since then, he had short term memory issues. We were engaged for over 3 years, but were putting a wedding off until after he had surgery to control the seizures we were dealing with weekly, sometimes daily.
He hadn't driven in over 2 years. We moved into a dream house a year before, then got his business ready to run without him. We had many talks about our future together without seizures, taking vacations, etc.
We couldn't wait to begin a more normal life. We were very much still in love.
In May, he had his left temporal lobe, hippocampus, and amygdala removed. The surgery went well, and when he woke up, they asked him who I was.
He said my name and that I was his fiance. I was so excited that all seemed well.
I did notice some things at the hospital that were off, but he just had brain surgery, so dismissed them. But soon after we returned home, I started realizing that he lost a lot of his long term memories.
At 6 weeks post surgery I realized that he had lost all of his personal memories for up to 15 years. He did not have any memories of anything we have ever done, said, or gone.
Left temporal lobe, amygdala, hippocampus
I also realized that without those memories, he did not have in love feelings for me anymore. He wasn't hugging me, holding my hand or anything anymore.
He was snappy because his brain was still healing, and after 5 years of being strong for him to help him through epilepsy and surgery, I finally broke down and cried for a week. The surgery changed him and he no longer wants to be in an intimate relationship.
What I learned is that there are different kinds of long term memory:
- Semantic Memory: general knowledge of the world and things in
- Episodic Memory: personal experiences in life. Your timeline.
Semantic: He knew who I was and that that I was his fiance.
Episodic: He has no memory of asking me to marry him, even though it was a very special emotional event for him.
Our love story has turned into a living nightmare. We are trying to be friends for now. But I have no idea what our future holds.
I never realized before how valuable memories are. Our lives are built on them.
Your story is heart-wrenching. Unfortunately, this is a common outcome among those who've had brain trauma due to surgery, car accident, stroke, and other causes.
I'm sure you've tried showing your fiance photos from your past to help jog his memory. You might want to continue looking for triggers for memories that seem to be lost.
Pat Martino - April 20, 2008
flickr / tom.beetz
Like your fiance, legendary jazz guitarist Pat Martino
lost most of his left temporal lobe due to surgery. Martino had suffered seizures his entire life from an entangled arteriovenous malformation (AVM) in that part of his brain.
After the surgery, he showed no interest in music. He didn't remember that he was a famous jazz guitarist. His father said he would walk right past his guitar and not even look at it.
However, certain sounds, images, and conversations began to trigger the return of some of his memories.
Of course, many memories never returned, but some did. I wonder if you might find some hope in Martino's story. Maybe even some ideas to try in your fiance's case.
For anyone reading this, if you have been through a similar experience
please comment on this thread. I'm sure the poster would appreciate any insight or encouragement.
Thank you for sharing your story. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
This is information only. It is not medical advice
, diagnosis, or treatment.